Summer 2015

Hi Everyone! 

Tomorrow is our school orientation and I really feel the "back to school" vibes now.

Every first day, our teacher always ask us to write an essay about our summer vacation..



Well, here's mine.


Summer 2015 is.. boring and.. meh.. But, I learned a lot.





A lot.




I discover the world of KPOP and got addicted to them. To Girls' Generation, f(x) & 2NE1 specifically.

Anyway, this summer is full of blessings because I put a lot of videos for my Youtube channel and fell in love with filming. However, I need to manage my time to make videos while also studying.



I'm really thankful for that.



Even though I didn't experience the beaches, pools, or even the sunset. I definitely treasure this summer.



Because I met Bubz. Not personally (but I'm hoping, someday..) I really feel like she's my older sister talking to me. Giving me advises, motivation and strength.



I am a sad, coward person. I have a lot of regrets on my decision and I don't feel happy with all the things that I have. I only want to go back to the past..


That's why I don't feel contented and happy. My last school year is definitely fun, but because I only focus on my old life. I forgot the present world that I'm living.



I lose all my interests on everything. I hate my school, I'm not contented with my friends. I basically hate my life. 


My friend told me to join the broadcasting team of our school paper (I've been a broadcaster since elementary) but because I don't want anything. I refused.


Time flies, it's the last day of school. I'm really excited and feel glad because I can finally go back to my old school.. or life.


But deep inside, I feel guilty. 


My classmates voted me as the president of the class because they trust me. 

I have my number 1  friend, Janine, who's always there helping and understanding me. 

I grab the opportunity to became one of the director and scriptwriter for our play which will never happen in my old school because a lot of students there are better than me. 

My close friends, Kristal, Deiya, Happy, Angelie, Marielle, Piolo, Thalia, Franzes, who support my passion with makeup and fashion. They really want me to put makeup on their face. I feel.. so.. appreciated.

I became more matured because of the new environment. I learned that teens nowadays can be rebellious too. I never know that until I went here. 

I met different people, different attitudes. Some mean, but hiding their true great colors because they're afraid to get hurt by anyone. 

Our adviser, Sir Alex, really thank me for being a responsible leader. I learned a lot from him. To never be afraid to break rules. You're still a person. You need freedom. You deserve to be happy.

And my mom for being a great mother. father and my forever best friend. 


I never realized these things because I want my old life back even though the new one is much much better. 


Thank you Lindy for opening my eyes. For opening my cold heart. I never trust anyone. I never believe anyone. Because I'm afraid that they will just hurt me in the end. 



But I'm wrong. 



Now, I'm excited for the new world and challenges that will give me more lessons, more opportunities and more memories that I will treasure forever.


I'm ready for the future full of tears, laughs, smiles, headaches, heartaches, craziness, embarrassments, fears, and happiness. I'm ready to move forward and be a new Jen Jen. The better one. 


I suffer from the extreme heartache. It's time to replace with a kind, nice, helpful, confident, unselfish and positive heart.

"Accept what is, let go of what was and have faith on what will be." 

― Anonymous